tiistai 11. syyskuuta 2012
Slip ups
I've been having some trouble sticking with the diet. I have couple of very good days and then I have a huge craving (no matter how much fruits I've eaten before) and I can't resist it. It's so annoying and I can't believe how easy it is to go back to those old patterns. I don't know what to do about it. Usually it happens when I'm upset, bored, annoyed, angry or otherwise emotional. I believe it's a way to stuff my negative feelings so that I don't have to handle them, I just go and eat my comfey-foods... And afterwards I feel even worse. But why do I keep doing it over and over again, even though I know I feel horrible, especially emotionally? Why was giving up alcohol, cigarettes, chocolate, coffee, tee so much easier? Should I give myself some more time and not be so hard on myself? It's just that now I'm eating all the foods I would have never eaten before while I was eating very clean but not all raw or vegan. Like pizza, chips, bread, and so on. It's so weird! It's as if I'm saying goodbye to those foods and having my last bite of them. I don't know, I'm just feeling sad for not to eat them ever again. I know I'm too hard on myself and don't give myself enough credit. I should reward myself with something nice instead of eating the crap. I found this device which makes noodles out of zucchini, I'm going to buy that for myself to make the most wonderful raw noodles, and I also want to buy me some kettle bells, I love to train with them. I was actually thinking of participating to a kettle bell competition they arrange here in Finland :)
sunnuntai 2. syyskuuta 2012
Food journal Days 32 &33
DAY 32:
B- 1,5kg watermelon, 1kg peaches, 2 bananas, 3 dates 1250cl
L- cooked slip
D- 10 bananas 1000cl
tot. 2250cl from fruit
sleep: 9h
water: 5L
exercise: 5min hopping warm up, 15min HIIT- work out and 15min yoga&15min meditation after. 10km run in the evening in the Helsinki Midnight Run, LOVED IT!! <3
DAY 33:
B- 1kg peaches, 6 bananas 1000cl
L- 500g banana ice cream, banana-peach smoothie (4 bananas, 3 peaches) 1000cl
D- 8 bananas 800cl
tot. 2800cl
water: 3.5L
sleep: 9h
exercise: 5min minitrampolin, 12min HIIT-workout, 15min yoga and 15min meditation. 20km bike ride in the evening
feeling: Yesterdays Midnight run was AWESOME!! I love the feeling and the atmosphere in this kind of events. I get such an energy rush just from being there. I ran 10km in 1h 5min, I didn't run as fast as I could cause I was running with a friend who wasn't as fast as me. In the last two km I ran as fast I could and my friend got behind me, she ran 1,5min slower. After the 10km I could have ran a lot more! Maybe I'll even start to train for a half marathon :) We were already planning on the next years event, that we are going to Stockholm, Göteborg or Copenhagen to run :) In Helsinki there was over 6000 runners! I can totally recommend in participating in theses events if you like to run, even a little bit <3
Today was a bit hang overish day, as if the running and the cooked food wasn't a goon combination... I'm so proud of myself that I didn't fell for that cooked food temptation today, just kept myself busy with some cleaning in the house and we watched a couple of movies today and in the evening had a really nice bike ride and a picnic in the nature. I just crabbed 15 bananas and a bottle of water with me and off we went. That's what I love about this lifestyle, it's so easy! Leaves so much time for everything else. I'm still learning and adapting this lifestyle and I feel as if my mind isn't totally with me on this yet. It still craves for cooked food and all the things involving cooked food, like cooking, washing the dishes, eating with family etc. But I'm doing the best I possibly can. I'm trying to focus on this moment what we have here, not gripping to the past and not too worried about the future. Tomorrow starts the fifth week of my 8-week meditation program which I'm going through to heal myself. It's been a challenge too... Sometimes feels really boring to do them and sometimes I feel such blessing and gratitude from doing it. I guess it will become more pleasant every time I do it, from one breath to another. Yes, meditation time and then sleep, good night you all <3
B- 1,5kg watermelon, 1kg peaches, 2 bananas, 3 dates 1250cl
L- cooked slip
D- 10 bananas 1000cl
tot. 2250cl from fruit
sleep: 9h
water: 5L
exercise: 5min hopping warm up, 15min HIIT- work out and 15min yoga&15min meditation after. 10km run in the evening in the Helsinki Midnight Run, LOVED IT!! <3
DAY 33:
B- 1kg peaches, 6 bananas 1000cl
L- 500g banana ice cream, banana-peach smoothie (4 bananas, 3 peaches) 1000cl
D- 8 bananas 800cl
tot. 2800cl
water: 3.5L
sleep: 9h
exercise: 5min minitrampolin, 12min HIIT-workout, 15min yoga and 15min meditation. 20km bike ride in the evening
feeling: Yesterdays Midnight run was AWESOME!! I love the feeling and the atmosphere in this kind of events. I get such an energy rush just from being there. I ran 10km in 1h 5min, I didn't run as fast as I could cause I was running with a friend who wasn't as fast as me. In the last two km I ran as fast I could and my friend got behind me, she ran 1,5min slower. After the 10km I could have ran a lot more! Maybe I'll even start to train for a half marathon :) We were already planning on the next years event, that we are going to Stockholm, Göteborg or Copenhagen to run :) In Helsinki there was over 6000 runners! I can totally recommend in participating in theses events if you like to run, even a little bit <3
Today was a bit hang overish day, as if the running and the cooked food wasn't a goon combination... I'm so proud of myself that I didn't fell for that cooked food temptation today, just kept myself busy with some cleaning in the house and we watched a couple of movies today and in the evening had a really nice bike ride and a picnic in the nature. I just crabbed 15 bananas and a bottle of water with me and off we went. That's what I love about this lifestyle, it's so easy! Leaves so much time for everything else. I'm still learning and adapting this lifestyle and I feel as if my mind isn't totally with me on this yet. It still craves for cooked food and all the things involving cooked food, like cooking, washing the dishes, eating with family etc. But I'm doing the best I possibly can. I'm trying to focus on this moment what we have here, not gripping to the past and not too worried about the future. Tomorrow starts the fifth week of my 8-week meditation program which I'm going through to heal myself. It's been a challenge too... Sometimes feels really boring to do them and sometimes I feel such blessing and gratitude from doing it. I guess it will become more pleasant every time I do it, from one breath to another. Yes, meditation time and then sleep, good night you all <3
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