I thought would be a good idea to write and open myself up a little bit cause my feelings haven't been so great lately and I know writing helps a lot. I've noticed while doing the food journal in BG-diet group in Facebook that my journals begins to be quite long and even though I know people might like to read them in there, I might as well write here to clear my head a bit.
I've been feeling little bit lonesome and left out, and while I was figuring out where all those feelings were arising I figured that I have had this feeling many times before and it's got nothing to do with my lifestyle or what I eat. Its quite the opposite; people think I am interesting (at least most people) for leading this kind of lifestyle and being a raw foodist. What I'm trying to say here is that I'm creating all these emotions in my own head, it's got nothing to do with what other people think about me. My mind is playing tricks on me, like "you should eat like everyone else to feel more acceptable" or "you should get a day job so that people don't think you're lazy" and stuff like that. But I think it's a positive thing that I've come to notice and be aware of these thoughts and feelings and knowing that I am able to change them as quickly as they emerged in my head. It's all about accepting the situation and not trying to change it in any way. I am what I am, it's only coming to the surface and becoming more noticeable to myself and that's maybe a little scary to me right now. Things are changing wether I do anything or not. I just need to accept it. This whole process of eating only raw fruits and veggies is so much more than just eating, it's changing my thinking and my actions and attitudes and I can feel how the old me is trying rebel with all these changes and making me feel bad at times. Those are the times I need to write, go out, do some exercises or go jogging, walking or just do something! Not to think about it too much, just DOO SOMETHING!!! <2
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