Food journal and feelings

I've been on this fruity lifestyle now on and off for 2 months. The first five weeks were great, I was so motivated and excited that I've found the diet and lifestyle for me, and I was almost obsessed with it. I tend to have obsessions when it comes to nutrition and food because I love to eat. Food had become more to me than just a way to feed my body; it was becoming my reason to live. I didn't feel comfortable like that. And now I feel that my mind is freed from all the huzz about food and nutrition, my mind is craving for something else to dwell on. I'm still wondering, could this be the answer, this simple strategy for eating. And I feel my mind hasn't kept up with my reasoning to this diet and still wants me to eat those fatty nuts and seeds and cheeses. That's why I feel so emotional but just keep carbing myself with fruits. I realize I'm mourning for the foods I used to eat, and that may be the reason for my emotions. This morning I was feeling so moody so I put my favorite songs on and started dancing and singing. I was filled with all these feelings of gratitude and love, had to send some love sms to my hubby <3 All of a sudden, while I was making myself orange juice, this one song really got me and as I was singing it I felt teardrops running down my face and felt so emotional. Usually I would try to blog these feelings and get myself together, but this time I really let the tears and feelings come. And you know, it felt great! I don't know if it's all about this diet and eating which is making me feel this way but it's something I never experienced before. I want to learn to accept my feelings and learn to live with them, embrace them as they are and make the best out of them.

Here's my food journal for today. You can find these in the banana-girl-diet-group in Facebook but you have to be a member of the group to read the posts. Have a nice one and I will see you soon! :)

DAY 10:
breakfast: 1L OJ, 4 bananas, 2 pears, 1 apple 1200cl
lunch: 12 bananas 1200cl
dinner: 5 bananas, 3 tomatoes 600cl
tot. 3000cl

water: 4L

sleep: 7h

exercise: 5min skipping warm up, 20min HIIT-workout and some yoga afterward